Who am I? What has been my identity over the years?
When I was young I was the daughter of…………
When I got married I was the wife of…..
When I was the church pianist at....
When I was on a pastoral team….
When I was their state Intercessor.
When a person would ask, “Do you know Margaret”? Their answer usually would be, ‘Oh yes, she is……’
I have found in my life that when I was at the end of a season of ministry there was an empty feeling, a feeling of ‘who am I really’…’Where do I fit?' You say that should not happen but what you do not acknowledge you can do nothing about. So many times we get lost and have our identity in where we are serving. Ministry to me is an outflow of who I am and I had always found such joy in serving in those capacities. A long season was about to take place for ministry and I had to realize that ‘who I was’ was not in past ministry but it was my character, the person who resides inside. The person I am in the dark when no one sees me. I did not lose ‘who I really was’. No one can destroy your character except for yourself.
What is my purpose?
I have had wonderful years of ministry traveling ….singing….teaching etc. and then a season came into my life and I wondered ‘What is my Purpose” And I have struggled with the ‘call’ on my life that still burns inside and had to acknowledge the platform is gone. I have questioned ‘What is my Purpose’, is God done with me? ‘Will He throw away all that I have gleaned from study and lessons learned in life? These are heart felt questions that I often seek an answer to. At times God will give a piece of the puzzle and this morning I heard John Maxwell preach, he said, ‘The Secret of your success is dependent on your daily agenda’. One of the examples he gave, in short form, we make a New Year’s resolution and we keep it for a couple of weeks and then we drop off. But the success of that decision is daily maintaining it.
My favorite verse for over 40 years is, ‘In Him I live and move and have my being’. if I am in Him , loving, fellowshipping with Him, basking in His presence and doing what He asks me to do I have to believe that I am exactly where He wants me. Knowing that my daily success is dependent on His agenda in my life and obedience to ‘thus says the Lord’
My answer to 'Who am I'? is not what I do but the character that I have.
'What is my purpose'? It is fellowship with Him, Obedience to His Word and telling others about Jesus on whatever platform He has for my life.